Monday, April 26, 2010

Rain and Mondays

Rainy Mondays tend to be horrible for most people. So i try my best to make every Monday the best possible day. It sort of sets a mood for the entire week.

I originally had plans to go to see Sweeney Todd with a few friends of mine but I got a call from CBW that today was the volunteer appreciation dinner. So i decided to ditch the play and get food first with Susmita and Rajib instead , the coolest people ever, and hang out. It's always nice to catch up with friends.

I got a chance to walk around lower east side in the rain with a friend and just talk, the rain is actually quite peaceful.

The dinner was nice, seeing all the old faces and new faces. Awards were given out and my good buddy Rafael got Volunteer of the year at CBW with a whopping 1400 hours. Including a pin from RIF and a gift card to Models. Eunice forgot to put in the card. Seeing myself a year ago, I wouldn't have believed I would be part of such an amazing literacy team. I remember when it was just a few of us reading to kids in the waiting room, trying our best to do a book fair or club with 4-5 people and chilling until the health center closed every time.
It was good times and I hope to continue it :)

I gotta feeling this is going to be a good week :)
No need for any drama, games, douchebags... just pure fun and chilling with friends.
Expect to see me wasted each day

its late

It's a quarter after one and i need you now!
i whipped out my harmonica, started playing some mellow tunes.
damn this ap english homework is getting to me.
i'll bring my little hotmetal harmonica to school sometime :)

the first song i ever played
my neighbors love it

Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Sunday, April 25, 2010


I woke up early today to roll down into China town. Yes, china town... canal street exactly.

I walked into Charles B.Wang Community health center, the place where I received my internship, to volunteer with the Literacy team's monthly book clubs.
I've been with the team for a year now and its been a great experience. I worked with children and toddlers, teaching them how to read, translating in between chinese and english. It is a very fulfilling experience. I met some great people and made great friends. Friends whom I haven't seen since january that i gotten to seen today. I think the last time I saw them was on my birthday. I am definitely going to help out more as my schedule is no longer as hectic. Tomorrow is volunteer appreciation day, which I think is later in the day...
I was able to catch up with everyone and walk my friend home, it was nice because i really havent caught up with anyone. I hope we all still keep in touch when we move on to college.

I passed the burnt down block near Grand St today, it was crazy to see the havoc that a fire can cause... it made me think about any lives that were lost and lives that were ruined... mother nature at it's worst...

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
just hold a smile
we're falling in and out of love
the same damn problem

together all the while
you can never say never
why we don't know when
time and time again

Taking action

It's been a while since I've written. Amidst school, friends, volunteering, rapping, writing I have been trying to stay sane. But schools almost over! Relief! but sadness.
Make new friends, and barely seeing old friends. Damn, I just realized I'm going to be 7 hours away. Well... 7 hours isn't much right? No it isn't. Just a ticket ride away from home. Just a call away from the city. All 300 miles...

I learned somethings today...
than i need to take action, i always like to believe i do... but sometimes i don't.
Sometimes i say i would, but i don't. Fear, nervousness and FEAR again gets in the way.

Fear of what? why is there even fear. I believed i feared nothing, after all my life experiences i thought i would fear nothing, i would think i have nothing to lose... but then i would think i realize i do.

The fear of loss. but loss is better than not knowing isn't it?

I've never asked God for guidance, i lost my faith in God long ago, when i was barely 13... i stopped believing. I started to live on my own and seeked guidance from barely anyone. But lately, ever so lately ive began to find Him again. But i know its all up to me