Thursday, February 11, 2010

Sunny, when i was younger

Me and Michael, sitting outside my old house
back in Jackson Heights when i was just 5
came here in 97
mama and papa were struggling
just to make a living
papa worked hard
worked two jobs
working from 9 to 5, 3 to 7
having no life, just struggling to be surviving
back then i didn't know about play
cause in those days
it was rough times
and no one lived a life like mine

it was a ham sandwich every day for lunch
but back then i was younger
and ate anything to sate my hunger
there wasn't much in this little town
but mama and papa helped me get out without a frown
helped me carry myself
and looking back now
I'm happy we got through it
cause it was crazy

Papa hit the jackpot in '05
the biggest thrill of my life
out of this place
rid of these days
escaped from devils
from the dreaded bible

goodbye Anna we loved ya
goodbye Peter we'll miss ya
goodbye Sunny you were my best buddy
but i gotta get out of this place unscathed
you know i would never leave ya, always will be with ya
but these times are different, and i got a life of mine, and i gotta lead it

but im back now
and looking around
things have changed
Anna and Peter, I see you your okay
living into the old age
Sunny you aren't who you use to be
the innocent boy that could see
all the things wrong
but i guess that's gone

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Carry this world

My little girl
tell me what its like to carry this world
to be alone
walking into to the streets unknown
girl aren't you scared about whats out there?
All the things that can happen, all the things forgotten
but I guess we have to
cause its the life we live through
Now pack the suitcase
We're gonna run out of this place
Cause mama and papas out the door
and they're never gonna be together anymore

Everything will just be right
little girl don't be in such a fright
we'll make it out alive
I'll do everything to make sure we survive
we'll have the life we wanted
not flaunted, by mama and papa's habit
I'll make sure of it

Little girl please don't cry
don't you see the fireflies
They're lighting up this world
Whirling, swirling, twirling
Please please
tell me your fine
and that this isn't the time

I'm on the speedway cruising at 95
thoughts racing, I'm praying
wondering if she'll be alive
please don't go yet little girl
there was so much to see in this world
you don't deserve this, they made us seem so worthless
I'm going crazy with the anxiety
that comes to me
I hear these voices in my head
giving me choices
dreams with her on her death bed
I can't take it, I'm out of the door
but every step I'm taking
I'm missing her more
I don't know what to do anymore
God give me an answer
get rid of this cancer
I turn around and I see her coming
running towards me
but its nothing more
than a vision
a breeze passing my feet
such a beautiful girl
but she'll never ever see the world
and now I'm sitting in my empty house
wondering how it happened
And asking
did I know what I was doing?

Haven't posted in a while.

I haven't been on blogspot for a while. Been busy, but I'm back. Past few weeks have blown by so quick, vacation is coming up soon, and theres no school tomorrow due to snow day! So what have i been up to? I've been writing a lot, poetry, rhymes and a bit of rap. Working on my chess game, free styling, and a bunch of other things. I did pajama day for school... which was boxer day for me. It was fun and comfortable. Cross dressing day is coming up, and I have a job interview that day... so no cross dressing for me! My math teacher was saying how we wont have another snow day for another 5 years... but i'll be out of school! :)